Not bleeding so much anymore, just the odd bit each day. Things still feel pretty sore but not as bad as it was. Woke up this morning and went to the loo, pooing is pretty traumatic still, but then i went back to bed after. I thought i might have got away without crying but no, when i woke at about 12 just felt really upset. I can't stop all these thoughts going around in my head, memories of being pregnant, and the memories of the happiness that it feels like i'll never feel again. I can't even remember what used to make me happy, i can't imagine feeling happy again really.

B/f has been wonderful as usual, but he is also devastated, we just lay there today cuddling each other and crying. This is so hard